I'm chosen for the drama workshop.
but i can't go. its taking too much of my time.
it is said that once you did not attend the workshop, u can't be inside the theatre .
an opportunity is given, and here i am, rejecting it because of the stupid GCE O LEVEL EXAMINATION. mummy disallow me to go as she said my main priority is my examinations. not to mention prep and prelim exam which is coming soon.
im so dissapointed. my dream came through.i managed to get in but an opportunity had to be given away because i have to make sacrifices. i have to reject the offer for the workshop. Frm the workshop, u will learn a lot of stuffs and may qualify for a role in the theatre.
but now, my hopes are dashed.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
happy birthday dad.i dun knw why im blogging now. i ws supposed to do my o level coursework.i felt so lifeless.im tired. sch's fun but tiring.i can feel the urgency now.more hmeworks, courseworks and lessons planned. i cnt believe that i slept during poa class jst now. guess i cant hold it any longer. i was ... weak. i have nt enuf sleep. watched transformers yst. it was AWESOME! i felt akward during the kissing scenes becoz i was in between sharvin and karthe. i was the only girl btw. imagine the akwardness.bt overall, it was fabulous. revenge of the fallen. i like the sound of it. oh yes.saturday's audition was GREAT! zilah and i was like laughing at stupid stuffs and making cranky faces at each other. i gt free food btw. thats the best part. auditions ws funny coz i knw most of the ppl there. hahahahah!cik ziana. lol. bro ws like laughing at my acting. meany. the jury : cik usop was making me laugh. abg islani ws being sarcastic towards my uncle.hahahahah! and mustaqim was.. well, making me nervous. but overall, great experience. its more relaxed than i expected. 'rambutku ada uban .ya uban.' hahawent to eat.aft that walked ard arab strt. then, went to haji lane to shop. nice stuffs. zilah wanted to buy this jumpsuit cum mini dress?cool. aft tt, went to bugis. i bought mre belts and a dress.yay! den, i ws like so tired. went hme.watched manjalara. and slept. it was nice going to the auditions and shopping with zilah. pictures will be posted soon. bro wanted to go to expo this sunday bt mum gt jemputan. alamak! spoiler ahh. after jemputan cn go wat. he said expo gt john little sale? or robinson sale? dun knw la. i want to go shpping again with mum and bro. bt this time, 1st bro.oh yes, i rmbr when we had a picnic with kak maya . mum, dad, me, nenek, 1st bro and kak maya. we played bicycle first. some hours later, girl girl, 2nd bro, boi boi and kat joined us. fun! we swim aft that. it was tiring bt still, family still have the energy to go expo aft the picnic. gt john little sale. mum bought cosmetics, bro bought his own stuffs. i bought ___.yes. and that's the last time i saw kak maya in person. they broke up. okay.enuf of blogging. halijah, be on task.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
I'm scared.
Help me
Sunday, June 21, 2009
olla.
FLAG DAY WAS ENTERTAINING!
okay, so i woke up at 6.30.
slept for another 20 minutes.
bathed at 6.50 and i was feeling nervous.
hahahah!
mum made a fuss abt sumthing and it really annoys me.
met the rest at mrt.
okay, so the mrt train smelt like corpse early in the morning.
oh dang, i really hate early-morning-train-rides-smell. so urghh.
eee. and,
i wanna shit by the time we reached jrg east
it was really urgent!
so i managed to hold on till lavender
SATURDAY:
so yea.flag day. tourist dont really donate. only one or two.
locals are the best!
so kind, bt some heartless
wen we said 'will u like to donate?', some will just stare at us and walk off.
they don't even had the integrity to say 'no,thank you'
what the fuck la.
but some were very nice.
they will donate and smile to us
gt this uncle, he even took out all of his coins to give us the donations.
all of us, i mean
he gave it to all of us so that it is fair.
so kind!
oh ya! i still rmbr this conversation.
me and raysha were buying bubble tea. then, beside me was this guy. the bubble tea auntie gave him his change after he paid for his drink, which is coins. then raysha ask me to ask him if he wants to donate or nt.
me: hi, will u like to donate?
him: errr..(pause)no, sorry(he smiled)
me: okay, nevermind thanks
and he went off
me: wat seh. gt coins bt still dun want to donate. so stingy
raysha: yalah.people nowadays.gt money bt dun want to donate.gt coins summore
then suddenly,i felt something on my can.
to my surprise, he was behind us all along! he heard wat we said about him.
den he donated to me.
omg, i was soooo paiseh!! i think he heard our conversation , thats why he decided to donate.
i feel so bad! raysha too
its like he was totally behind us and heard what we say about him. so he decided to donate.
i feel so bad!
den his fren also donate .
i feel soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad.
to this person, i really wanna apologise. i knw i was being very harsh . im soryy.i am really very sorry
then, give bck the cans.
i was having a major flu and i was suffering.
quickly rushed home to change
reached hme and argue with bro as we do not noe where we wnt to go shopping
and i won!
hahaha
so quickly change and off we go
me, mum and 2nd bro
we went to raffles city shpping centre first. then marina sq. and peninsula
i was sooooooooooo restless.
imagine if u were having a major flu, and u went for flag day which was totally tiring and furthermore it was a sunny day, and u quickly change and go shopping.
my leg was in pain!
bro bought a pair of shoes, briefs and singlets
mum bought 2 pants
and, i bought NOTHING
yeap. nothing
i love these golden bangles at dorothy perkins & john little bt it cant fit me. my arms were too small
it was smoking hot. its very vintage and i love it . but it cant fit me
i am so sad
i really want the golden bangles.
SUNDAY:
picnic cancelled due to some reasons. family members come to my house.
as usual, luqman is very cute
godmum & goddad just returned frm umrah.
yay~
i cant walk now. my legs hurt-a lot
bro was making fun of me yst as i had leg cramps
he said 'eee.so weak, like old nanny'
den i woke up today and gt to knw that BRO ATE PANADOL JUST BECAUSE HIS LEGS WERE IN PAIN
hahahhahahah! 'mengata orang, dier tu yang lebih!'
he said i was weak when he himself have to eat panadol.
haiyo!
yay.1st bro wants to watch movie with me on tuesday
i wonder if his words can be trusted
ok bye.im still tired frm yst shopping.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
olla.
im just a lazy fucker.
dang. its 3 and im still not bathed yet. i didnt even step out of the house
this june hols, i am not planning to go out anywhere.im just plain lazy, yeah?
alright,alright maybe i WILL go out.
but not now.
im so lazy to bathe, get change and bla bla bla
i jus wanna be a couch potato.
my usual time-table is waking up, tv all the way and eat
thats it.
no studying, homeworks or whatever shit
but now, i had to start on my revision.
o levels in, err?
4 mnths? yeah. approximately. doing my food and nutrition holiday assignments
oh yeah, im planning to but this dvd anout WW2.
THE D-DAY, THE FALL OF JAPAN, THE ATTACK ON HARBOUR AND MORE! there's mre about hitler.yeah! i love all this stuffs
watched national geographic channel yst.
'42 ways to kill Hitler'
nice documentary though. also watched 'Inside Pol Pot's Secret Prison' at history channel.note that i went to the S21 prison before.its so eerie.i think its haunted. it is also known as the Tuol Sleng Prison if i am not wrong. its in Cambodia.duhh
i also went to the killing fields . omg, the skulls.
at the documentary, it shows the 2 places that i went in Cambodia. the killing fields and the Tuol Sleng Musuem. both places is so historic. when u went in, the atmosphere is so 'sayup'
u can imagine how the innocent ppl were tortured and executed.
stupid POL POT. its just so mean. its against humanity
the documentary also says that when the prisoners wanted to turn their heads to sleep, they need to ask permission frm the guards. if u did not, u will be whipped. dang, who never turn their heads wen sleeping?and if the prisoners turn their heads without even them realising it coz they were sleeping, the guards will torture them. and if u gt the permission to change ur body angle, be careful because if ur leg chains emits a sound, u gonna get whipped. babies are not spared.
note that there were 42 plans to get hitler killed but still, it failed.. millions of ppl wanted hilter to be assasinated.but, that Fuhrer still manage to survive. on 30 april 1945, Adolf Hitler commited suicide so that he would not be captured by British, American or Russian troops. on 7 may 1945, Germany's armies surrendered.
that's history. oh thats my favourite subject
hmm.enough about history. saturday or sunday my family is going to plan a picnic/barbecue, i guess.im nt sure.cant wait
on the 27th and 28th , me and fatin nabilah gt some workshop to do.:)
yayness.okay im bored.
later.
Friday, June 12, 2009
DOWN WITH HIGH FEVER, FLU AND COUGH.-again
i started to have a bad,bad, bad flu on wednesday and i felt a bit feverish. mum asked me to eat panadol so i jus listened to her. the next morning, my temperature suddenly shoot up. if im nt wrong, it was above 39 degrees. i couldnt believe it though.
vomitted 2 times. it was disgusting. watever food that had been swallowed, came out in just 5-10 minutes. i could even see the undigested rice at the toilet bowl. its so awful.
my fever had reduced. and now, my fever is gone but i am still drowsy after taking my medications. i felt as if that i am floating. am i writing nonsense here? i am not in the right state of my mind to blog. im writing in broken english now. darn i wanna sleep
i think im high. too much medications i guess. one of them is cough syrup.dat thing really makes me drowsy and high. pardon me for the horrible use of grammar
bye. im sleepy
Monday, May 25, 2009
  i bought 4. bt havent gt it yet coz e class list is with the person.i took this frm facebook.
Friday, May 22, 2009
DOWN WITH FEVER AND FLU.
felt so weak and high. well, nt really a fever but jus felt feverish. mid yr exams marks not that gd. i've done my best , i knw that. history marks was shit. i studied 7 hours for it and i got 27/50. wat the fuck/ frm 9pm to 4 plus am. do u noe how stressful it was? i can go insane. and to make it worse, i gt a pathetic 27/50 for my history. wat the FUCK/ i deserve more. and for maths, i knew that i had lack of practice and preparation. gonna work on that. mr joshua tan ask me to practice more and fill in the gaps. thats for poa. well, for malay, i seriously dont know how to improve.just have to practice, i assume. f and n, i am pretty proud of myself.although i only read and browse through the textbk fr 15 minutes, i managed to grab a passing grade. have to work on that too. physics, be less careless. chemistry, so far so good. hmmm. s.s, okayyyylah.
well, im planning to take either 'Human Resource Management with Psychology' or 'Applied Drama and Psychology' at singapore poly.
for ngee ann poly, im planning to take 'Advertising & Public Relations' or ' Psychology & Community Services ' hmm. i am nt sure which one to take.
but for now, im gonna focus on my o's first. the results are mre important.
aniway, to my horror, i woke up at 6.30 am this morning. i was late! i quickly bathe and gt ready for school. surprisingly, i managed to gt ready for sch in time. 7 am, and i'm off to sch. thats the time where i usually leave the house. and, im not late! yes!
i have a bad hair day. my hair was like shit and my flu was getting worst. i was a bit dizzy while walking to sch. in my mind, i had only 1 thing to care about : PLEASE DON'T BE LATE FOR SCHOOL . note that my new yr resolution was not to be late for school and gt any detention. not even once. so, in order to accomplish that, i quickly rushed to school. by the time i reached bus interchange, it was already 7.20! omg. 5 more minutes. i walked like a mad woman, praying hard that i will nt be late. THANKFULLY, there were some ppl who were still strolling to sch. bt i dun care, i was still walking like a mad woman. i was dizzy, perspiring , feverish and down with flu at that point of time. imagine the torture! then, there's one kind soul who actually said 'hi' to me. that actually helps to calm me down. i was shocked at first as i thought he wouldnt talked to me ever again as he looks like a shy guy. i talked to him and ya. talked and talked. i was actually blushing for I DONT KNOW WHY?! hahahaah.im smiling again:) he actually talked to me!!!! hehe. then yea. i actually gt the ttime to put my bag in class then rushed down to the hall. by that time, i felt like fainting. i was feeling so weak. its like as if a monster had just sucked out my blood
den ya.eng was okay. i dont really believe in the secret. i don't believe that we create the universe, i dont believe that we are god in human form. thats so totally out of religion. mr nonis say that its okay to believe some parts. but as a mature person, we ought to knw wats right and whats wrong. 'buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih'. ceyy, halijah or WHAAT. he says that the video is a bit spiritual if u watched it longer . he said that he is a christian himself and some parts may nt be really that suitable. i agree with him. well, i believe that u should think positively in order to achieve ur dreams and take actions. bt not up to an extent by saying that we create the universe and bla bla bla. we can do this and that. ohh puhhlease!
hmm..but i do respect their beliefs/opinions as that is what they think.
mt prep exam coming up. 1st june, mt o level. phewww. gonna be veryyyy busy. 1st bro said that i am like a bird. eat, and shit. eat, and shit. he says that my faeces stink. well, whose faeces doesnt stink, mann? i love to shit. its the best feeling everr, yknow?
Monday, May 18, 2009
  yay! went swimming last friday! it was soooooo funn! i;ve gotten really dark sorry to fatin nabilah if i cant follow u guys to bugis sorry to hanis junie if i cant follow u guys to the abandoned house. and sorry again to fatin nabilah as i cant make it today im soooooo sorrryyy this will be the first and the last time im wearing a ______ i feel so sinful aniway, me n mum went shopping again! not really a shopping spree. yst 2nd bro turned 23rd. yay! happy birthday me and mum went to j.p to buy for him a watch we picked for him a adidas watch, exactly the same as 1st bro's but his is black and gold. i can sense that 1st bro is jealous. didnt went out to eat yst as 2nd bro gt his drama rehearsal so mum decided to buy for him a watch instead. hurhur. i fell in love with this vintage levi's watch omg its pink and vintage! so cool i wanted to buy so many stuffs but mum ask me to save it during the june hols. june hols we can go shopping togethr. note that mum's fav store is TANGS. followed by JOHN LITTLE. and METRO, ISETAN and watsoever. its a one stop place . i bought a dress while mum bought a top i've been eye-ing for a lot of stuffs! damn/\ orite. gtg nw. i havent bathe yet aniway. haha! ohoh! and i will link to those who asked me to. sorry for the delay! bye!
  halijah capsized!
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